Life isn't fair.

You know how you can have a really great evening with friends, and the only thing you want to do is go home and curl up with the one you love? I'd so love to do that right now, but that is not possible, and yet it's the only thing I want. I gave up a Friday night alone, which would have been spent watching Whale Wars and wedding shows on TLC, to hang out with a great group of girls and I'd really just love to come home and snuggle up with Seth. I know I "signed up" for this but damnit, I just miss him and I just want him home. The girls that I was with tonight all get to go home to their husbands and sometimes it's just not fair. That's all. I just want to say that 4.5 months into this deployment, I want to be done dealing with it. I want to be married, I want to be together, I want to see him, I want to sleep with him, I want this deployment to be over. Want, want, want. None were military wives either...they all have normal jobs, normal schedules, normal families, normal relationships. It would be different if they knew what it was like. They don't though. I guess I'll quit my complaining and go curl up in my lonely bed with a picture of us and talk to him.